Thursday, October 30, 2008

Doing what I can...

I'm not entirely sure how to explain how I feel I've applied my five beliefs incorrectly. I need help. I know I come across as elusive to many people and that eventually leads to people thinking that I'm trying to hide something. My problem is that I try to weigh the consequence of what I say and do constantly in an effort to appease as many people as possible. I see now how that can really rub people the wrong way. Ironically by trying to make everyone happy, even fewer are pleased.



Most of the time all I really want is to please people by what I do and say. That is actually what I want. I think that is the biggest problem. I just need to stop caring what people think and say what I believe! Right?

Any way... I'll let you know what I decide to do. Until then I want to start posting boring doctrinal stuff I've worked on over the years. That is what I usually think about when I'm by myself. I think only a fraction of the people who know me would believe that.

I got some work cut out for me.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

You Tell Me

Let me start off with a few fundamental beliefs that I have that influence my actions:

1. I believe that we are all ultimately responsible for our thoughts, actions, words, and feelings. I do not believe that someone can "make" me feel any thing.
(2 Nephi 2:13-16, JST Matthew 5:22)

2. I literally view every friend, family, and extended family as the same. I believe that we all share the same divine nature and therefore are to be treated as such. I do not believe that you can "divorce" yourself from anyone based off of their behavior.
(Romans 8:16-17, John 15:12-13)

3. I believe that it is contrary to God's will to EVER be offended. I believe that any offended feeling I have is contrary to the teachings of Christ and should never be acted upon. (3 Nephi 11:29-30, Matthew 11:6, JST Matthew 5:22)

4. I believe that free agency is used properly only when it is parallel with God's teachings. I believe that a disciple of Christ submits himself to act as Christ at the time of baptism. Therefore I do not believe that you can believe that you can do "anything" you want and still be a disciple of Christ.
(Matthew 26:39, 2 Nephi 2:27-29)

5. I believe that our weaknesses, trials, and tribulations are for our benefit and that our talents and riches are for the benefit of others. That also leads me to believe that if we use our talents and riches for ourselves, that is all we will serve. I believe that we can one day be like Job and not only be grateful for our trials, but want more of them.
(2 Nephi 2:11-15, D&C 127:2, Job 23:10, Ether 12:6,27)

Those who know me, know that I do not execute these personal beliefs perfectly. Nonetheless, they are what I use in trying to determine what feelings are valid and in sync with God and which ones are not.

I need to go to bed now. The next time I'm at this, I want to identify what I see as problems in how I have gone about trying to live by these beliefs. That will take quite a while.

Why not

Well.......

I guess I'm gettin on this blog train. Recently it's come to my attention that I am the worst communicator on the planet. I think I'm doing an OK job only to find out that I have been leaving many with a bad impression. This will be my attempt to give insight to my MO to maybe shed light on why I act the way I do with the hope that I may improve myself so that what I feel and think is actually what is being understood. To date I've done a very poor job. I will soon prepare a game plan as to how I'm going to do that. I've always felt that I can organize my thoughts and intentions better on paper. Heres to transparency!